to a question I've been asking myself for a long time. Why do I keep playing this game?
I found myself asking it during a lesson today, P.E to be exact. I was playing Soccer and playing as the goal keeper. As much as I sucked at it. Someone kicked the ball for goal, I caught it then dropped it and it went over the line. Then ALL of the other guys were teasing me, and making fun of me. It doesn't piss me off or anything, because I know that I could own any of them in a fight. But it makes me sad that kids are so cruel, and how rough high school actually is on people. I know a lot of people, who are in my position most days of the week, and it makes me realise why these people aren't social, why they spend lunch times in library's and such. I honestly think if I got put under all that shit, I'd crack and someone would actually like, really get hurt. Not like, broken collarbone or anything, actual like, hospital shit.
So my answer was that I keep playing, because it keeps me happy, keeps me sane, lets me have a place to escape from all of that shit. So why the hell do I hang around throughout all of the drama? Because I know that deep down, no matter what you really want to think, it doesn't mean anything. You can insult me all you want in game, talk all of the shit that you want, but it doesn't make you a better person, or me a worse person. I play the game to enjoy it, when I'm running raids and playing with all the people that I actually like, I'm having fun. That's what keeps me playing, throughout any shit that happens. That's why if someone's talking crap about me in a raid, or possibly telling me about how I'm under geared or anything, it's not going to affect me at all. I'll do my job to the best of my ability, because I enjoy it. If I went out and played a rugby match, I'm not going to play half heartedly because I want to win, and I love playing the game, this is no different to me.
I've been getting my marks back for my exams, and they're looking pretty good so far, so I can probably hang around for a while longer. Even though I was watching porn while I was supposed to be studying for my R.E exam. So far I've had a high of 98% for maths and a low of 77% for biology. So I'm doing good. Which may also be why this post seems like a goddamn essay, I've had to practise writing them for the past 3 weeks.
This brings me to think about how I do so well in my exams, when I don't study for them at all. My teachers tell me that I'm one of those kids that everyone's jealous of because I have a natural ability to learn quickly and easily, without having to force myself into remembering things. Brings me back to raiding and WoW. I can walk into almost any raid instance and be told about a fight once, and I will know what to do. Sometimes it may take me a double check or two so I'm sure, but that's it. If there's anything that makes me a good player, that's what it would be. I have a pretty good reaction time, however due to a perma-500ms, it's like my reactions are half a second slower.
Oh GG I've gone and blabbed on about shit all, for the past like, million words. Why can't I concentrate on work this well? Eh, loldps ftw.
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I understand, Jezza. If we could shoot Shadowbolts and make people run away in fear at the snap of a finger, maybe RL would be more easily dealt with. Unfortunately, RL is harder than that, so we escape.
We're all in that boat, bro.
I escape when I can. WoW is more like a job some days though. I should be getting paid to play >.>
you want an even better escape than WoW start writing. i started working on a graphic novel about 3 years ago (which is almost done since i dumped the artist because she was lazy and turned it into more of a series of novels, although only the first book is done). theres nothing quite like becoming best friends with the characters and world YOU created lol.
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